ting with the bomber flying over the train； had put me into a kind of thoughtful mood。 after the usual argument we got the kids to bed early and cleared off in time for the lecture； which was billed for eight o’clock。
it was a misty kind of evening； and the hall was cold and not too well lighted。 it’s a little wooden hall with a tin roof； the property of some nonconformist sect or other； and you can hire it for ten bob。 the usual crowd of fifteen or sixteen people had rolled up。 on the front of the platform there was a yellow placard announcing that the lecture was on ‘the menace of fascism’。 this didn’t altogether surprise me。 mr witchett； who acts as chairman of these meetings and who in private life is something in an architect’s office； was taking the lecturer round； introducing him to everyone as mr so…and…so （i forget his name） ‘the well…known anti…fascist’； very much as you might call somebody ‘the well…known pianist’。 the lecturer was a little chap of about forty； in a dark suit； with a bald head which he’d tried rather unsuccessfully to cover up with wisps of hair。
meetings of this kind never start on time。 there’s always a period of hanging about on the pretence that perhaps a few more people are going to turn up。 it was about twenty…five past eight when witchett tapped on the table and did his stuff。 witchett’s a mild… looking chap； with a pink； baby’s bottom kind of face that’s always covered in smiles。 i believe he’s secretary of the local liberal party； and he’s also on the parish council and acts as m。c。 at the magic lantern lectures for the mothers’ union。 he’s what you might call a born chairman。 when he tells you how delighted we all are to have mr so…and…so on the platform tonight； you can see that he believes it。 i never look at him without thinking that he’s probably a virgin。 the little lecturer took out a wad of notes； chiefly newspaper cuttings； and pinned them down with his glass of water。 then he gave a quick lick at his lips and began to shoot。
do you ever go to lectures； public meetings； and what…not？
when i go to one myself； there’s always a moment during the evening when i find myself thinking the same thought： why the hell are we doing this？ why is it that people will turn out on a winter night for this kind of thing？ i looked round the hall。 i was sitting in the back row。 i don’t ever remember going to any kind of public meeting when i didn’t sit in the back row if i could manage it。 hilda and the others had planked themselves in front； as usual。 it was rather a gloomy little hall。 you know the kind of place。 pitch…pine walls； corrugated iron roof； and enough draughts to make you want to keep your overcoat on。 the little knot of us were sitting in the light round the platform； with about thirty rows of empty chairs behind us。 and the seats of all the chairs were dusty。 on the platform behind the lecturer there was a huge square thing draped in dust…cloths which might have been an enormous coffin under a pall。 actually it was a piano。
at the beginning i wasn’t exactly listening。 the lecturer was rather a mean…looking little chap； but a good speaker。 white face； very mobile mouth； and the rather grating voice that they get from constant speaking。 of course he was pitching into hitler and the nazis。 i wasn’t particularly keen to hear what he was saying—get the same stuff in the news chronicle every morning—but his voice came across to me as a kind of burr…burr…burr； with now and again a phrase that struck out and caught my attention。
‘bestial atrocities。 。 。 。 hideous outbursts of sadism。 。 。 。 rubber truncheons。 。 。 。 concentration camps。 。 。 。 iniquitous persecution of the jews。 。 。 。 back to the dark ages。 。 。 。 european civilization。 。 。 。 act before it is too late。 。 。 。 indignation of all decent peoples。 。 。 。 alliance of the democratic nations。 。 。 。 firm stand。 。 。 。 defence of democracy。 。 。 。 democracy。 。 。 。 fascism。 。 。 。 democracy。 。 。 。 fascism。 。 。 。 democracy。 。 。 。’
you know the line of talk。 these chaps can churn it out by the hour。 just like a gramophone。 turn the handle； press the button； and it starts。 democracy； fascism； democracy。 but somehow it interested me to watch him。 a rather mean little man； with a white face and a bald head； standing on a platform； shooting out slogans。 what’s he doing？ quite deliberately； and quite openly； he’s stirring up hatred。 doing his damnedest to make you hate certain foreigners called fascists。 it’s a queer thing； i thought； to be known as ‘mr so…and…so； the well…known anti…fascist’。 a queer trade； anti…fascism。 this fellow； i suppose； makes his living by writing books against hitler。 but what did he do before hitler came along？ and what’ll he do if hitler ever disappears？ same question applies to doctors； detectives； rat…catchers； and so forth； of course。 but the grating voice went on and on； and another thought struck me。 he means it。 not faking at all—feels every word he’s saying。 he’s trying to work up hatred in the audience； but that’s nothing to the hatred he feels himself。 every slogan’s gospel truth to him。 if you cut him open all you’d find inside would be democracy…fascism…democracy。 interesting to know a chap like that in private life。 but does he have a private life？ or does he only go round from platform to platform； working up hatred？ perhaps even his dreams are slogans。
as well as i could from the back row i had a look at the audience。 i suppose； if you e to think of it； we people who’ll turn out on winter nights to sit in draughty halls listening to left book club lectures （and i consider that i’m entitled to the ‘we’； seeing that i’d done it myself on this occasion） have a certain significance。 we’re the west bletchley revolutionaries。 doesn’t look hopeful at first sight。 it struck me as i looked round the audience that only about half a dozen of them had really grasped what the lecturer was talking about； though by this time he’d been pitching into hitler and the nazis for over half an hour。 it’s always like that with meetings of this kind。 invariably half the people e away without a notion of what it’s all about。 in his chair beside the table witchett was watching the lecturer with a delighted smile； and his face looked a little like a pink geranium。 you could hear in advance the speech he’d make as soon as the lecturer sat down— same speech as he makes at the end of the magic lantern lecture in aid of trousers for the melanesians： ‘express our thanks—voicing the opinion of all of us—most interesting—give us all a lot to think about—most stimulating evening！’ in the front row miss minns was sitting very upright； with her head cocked a little on one side； like a bird。 the lecturer had taken a sheet of paper from under the tumbler and was reading out statistics about the german suicide…rate。 you could see by the look of miss minns’s long thin neck that she wasn’t feeling happy。 was this improving her mind； or wasn’t it？ if only she could make out what it was all about！ the other two were sitting there like lumps of pudding。 next to them a little woman with red hair was knitting a jumper。 one plain； two purl； drop one； and knit two together。 the lecturer was describing how the nazis chop people’s heads off for treason and sometimes the executioner makes a bosh shot。 there was one other woman in the audience； a girl with dark hair； one of the teachers at the council school。 unlike the other she was really listening； sitting forward with her big round eyes fixed on the lecturer and her mouth a little bit open； drinking it all in。
just behind her two old blokes from the local labour party were sitting。 one had grey hair cropped very short； the other had a bald head and a droopy moustache。 both wearing their overcoats。 you know the type。 been in the labour party since the year dot。 lives given up to the movement。 twenty years of being blacklisted by employers； and another ten of badgering the council to do something about the slums。 suddenly everything’s changed； the old labour party stuff doesn’t matter any longer。 find themselves pitchforked into foreign politics—hitler； stalin； bombs； machine… guns； rubber truncheons； rome…berlin axis； popular front； anti… intern pact。 can’t make head or tail of it。 immediately in front of me the local munist party branch were sitting。 all three of them very young。 one of them’s got money and is something in the hesperides estate pany； in fact i believe he’s old crum’s nephew。 another’s a clerk at one of the banks。 he cashes cheques for me occasionally。 a nice boy； with a round； very young； eager face； blue eyes like a baby； and hair so fair that you’d think he peroxided it。 he only looks about seventeen； though i suppose he’s twenty。 he was wearing a cheap blue suit and a bright blue tie that went with his hair。 next to these three another munist was sitting。 but this one； it seems； is a different kind of munist and not…quite； because he’s what they call a trotskyist。 the others have got a down on him。 he’s even younger； a very thin； very dark； nervous…looking boy。 clever face。 jew； of course。 these four were taking the lecture quite differently from the others。 you knew they’d be on their feet the momen